Ten things I wish I had known before I started my midlife transition

I ran into an old friend a few weeks back and we were talking about our work. We cross over on the trauma resolution and nervous system work. This friend is in her thirties and we were talking about midlife and menopause and supporting women in this transition and how important it is because it is such a time of overall transition AND it is a gateway to ageing. It is an important transition and we really need to review our life and all aspects of it so that she can set herself up to live well in her second half of life.

I went home and thought what would be the top 10 things I wish I had known before I started midlife? If we had a crystal ball we could stare into that would helps us, what would be the most helpful tips. So here you go.

1.We go through two transitions midlife and menopause at this time in our lives if we live in female bodies. Menopause is the end of our fertility with that comes not just physical change but psychological growth and healing. The developmental challenge at midlife is being radically honest and truthful with yourself about where you are at right now and who you are.

2. Learning about hormone health is absolutely key at this time in life, if you can learn earlier go do it. It is not just your sex hormones that change, they affect all our other hormones, like thyroid, insulin, our stomach hormones and stress hormones because of the change.

3. You cannot push your way through these transitions. The way through is going inward, slowing down and learning to rest.

4. You will get restless, question everything and intuitively feel like you need change in your life. Don't project this all out, explore your inner world.

5. Your body is the home that you live in. Take very good care of it. The overarching question that covers these transitions is "How can I set myself up to live well in the second half of life?". Use that as your guide and refer back to it constantly.

6. Old trauma will come up for resolution at this time and the hormone changes often impact the nervous system to cause that to happen. Remember our body is wise, intelligent and has an innate capacity and orientation to healing.

7. Get the support and help you need. You are the CEO of your body, it is OK to work with different professionals to get the support you need. (I count my chiropractor, shiatsu practitioner, GP, oncologist, massage therapist and somatic experiencing teachers just to name a few in that group)

8. Estrogen is a hormone that fosters connection with others and bonding AND it gives us rose coloured glasses. All of a sudden you will start to see the world differently when it declines. This is normal, you will get mad and annoyed. All of this is OK, you cannot 'unsee' things now, this will help promote your passion and purpose as you move through menopause.

9. You will come face to face with your cultural conditioning around ageing, sexuality and sensuality. Face into it, don't let it hold you back from growing and be radically honest with yourself.

10. Pelvic health is critical at this time in our life. The Pelvis is a incredibly important part of our body that connects the top and bottom of our body. Within it are our reproductive organs and and our organs that get rid of waste. We hold so much old emotional stress and tension in our pelvic floor and this impacts us physically, emotionally and sexually. It is ok to get obsessed about pelvic floor health in my opinion. Do pelvic floor exercises, pilates, jade egg exercises, whatever you need, find people who really know what they are doing.

And one more just because...... you are letting go of parts of yourself you don't need anymore and birthing a new part of yourself, your inner wise women is on the way!

Emotional Alchemy

Sometimes I feel like I have the anger of 1000 women inside of me. It's fleeting now. It was stronger when I was younger. Then I decided to so something about it.

I was angry about the way women are treated in the workplace. I was angry about women's health and how little focus it got. I was angry about how women were marginalised from financial resources. I was angry about how humans were destroying the earth. I was angry that people were so emotionally stunted and disconnected from their humanity.

I realised that we don't get angry about stuff we don't care about. On the other side of Anger is great passion. I am a passionate woman. How could I alchemise that anger into passion and focus it on something that was so much bigger than me. Something that would help others, help people thrive in their life. How could I set my anger into motion, alchemise it into passion?

That's the thing about emotions. We have to let them move, be in motion. One thing I have learned from Tantra is we can alchemise our emotions. They are signposts for us but we’ve have been culturally numbed from listening to them. Look at the messaging we get. “take the high road”, “keep calm and carry on’. No thanks. When you listen and feel them there is something there. On the other side of Anger is Passion. Of Grief, there is Gratitude and Love, Despair there is Faith, the other side of Fear is Joy. Frustration is telling us something could be so much better, there is growth on the other side of that.

I realised that actually we were all so emotionally disconnected and that had such a really big impact on relationships. What would happen if we learned to let our emotions be in motion? What would happen if we learned to better talk about what we need in relationships? What would happen if we could better at listening to each other?

We don’t really learn how to do relationships when we are younger do we. When I do couples coaching so many men say to me they wish they had learned all of this in their twenties. it would have made their life so much easier, would have made their relationships more joyful.

Women have to internalise so much of their emotional life. It's not ok to be angry, frustrated, sad. Who wants to be the angry bitch? So we numb ourselves to it, we put ourselves to sleep. Then we wonder why when we reach perimenopause our body is screaming at us to wakeup from that sleep. Our numbed emotions are seeping out us, sometimes in small spurts, sometimes in explosions.

Six years ago I walked out of an Executive Coaching session with a female senior executive who was working in investment banking and basically having to hide a huge part of herself in plain sight just to fit in and be safe. She was having to dim her radiant light big time just to fit into the masculine culture.

I thought fuck this, the only way women can step into their power is if they learn how to be in their bodies, to reclaim them, to learn how to express their emotions and actually be ok with that how felt. Not to numb themselves out and repress them. Because that was what I was seeing time and again. All these numb women.

A radiant empowered women loves her emotions, claims her erotic self, she glows from the inside out. I wanted to help women stop having to hide so much of themselves. God I wanted it for myself too. My intuition was telling me embodiment was the key. Sexuality was key it is so foundational to who we are. It doesn’t exist exclusively of our relationships; with ourselves and others.

So I followed my intuition and went off off studied sexuality, relationship coaching. Breathwork, embodiment work, it was life changing. it's a bit of a life long journey I think there is so much to learn. It was like opening up a big chest of gold and having a rainbow pop out of it.

I found that place in myself, learned how it felt. You cannot coach and teach something like embodiment if you haven't experienced it yourself.

Best decision I ever made. It was transformational. This work is transformational. I also met some unbelievably awesome women on my journey.

I want this for all women. I want to unwind all that conditioning. It's thousands of years of conditioning that we are unwinding here. I want women to stop feeling numb and start feeling alive. I want them to reclaim their anger. To speak up for issues that are unjust. To stand in there power and defend their boundaries. To say No I am not OK with what is going on here.

Because I know of you if heal womens relationships with their bodies it will help men. It will help the planet.

Every time I see a woman go through six months of coaching, I'm always amazed by the difference and the person I meet at the end. They glow from the inside. It improves their relationships - all of them. I love my clients, I love working with woman because they try so bloody hard.

The Dalai Lama is famously quoted as saying “The world will be saved by the Western Woman”. Based on what I've seen in the last five years I believe it down to my bones.

One of the best ways you can start to wake up to your emotions is through Dance. Dance out those emotions. I made up a little Emotional Alchemy playlist for you on spotify.

If you want to dive deep and learn how to alchemise your emotions, I have some spots open for coaching right now. Drop me a line if you want to talk about it or you can book a free Clarity Call.

Pleasure as a pathway to step into your personal power

There is a saying out there that when a woman begins menstruation she enters into her power, in her menstruating years she practices her power, at menopause she becomes her power. It is a long journey, undoing years of cultural conditioning to reclaim and step into our power.

Many of us have become disconnected from our inherent power by living our lives in high summer mode all the time. That is, ON mode 24/7. Womens bodies are cyclical they are meant to have high times and quiet times, creative times and down times. What is valued in our society is production and achievement; it is at odds with the natural rhythms of a female body.

I look around me and I see many women my age who are exhausted and burned out and unwell. They are trying to work, look after young children and teenagers, some are looking after elderly parents. When I ask many women what they do for their self care practices they often look at me like I am speaking a foreign language. The common answer I hear is “I have no time for that’. If you have time for a glass of wine, you have time for pleasure practices, you only need 5 minutes each day. The question I ask them is “What is getting in the way of you giving yourself permission to pleasure?”

I know a lot of this is cultural conditioning. Women have been heavily conditioned to feel shame around their sexuality and sensuality. The word pleasure has become so coupled with sexuality and sensuality that just the mere mention of it evokes contraction in some peoples bodies. Pleasure can be sexual and sensual but it can also just be something that is pleasurable to us. It has become so coupled with those two words that it has disconnected us from our own bodies. It started thousands of years ago. I have been reading quite a bit lately around Aphrodite/Venus, the Goddess of Love. They are the same person. The Greeks called her Aphrodite as did many others and when the Romans came along they called her Venus.

The Roman Empire is known by some as the Empire without limits. In her book, Venus and Aphrodite, ‘History of a Goddess’, Bettany Hughes quotes the Roman writer Cicero. He states that the name Venus is derived from the Roman word Venire (which is the Italian verb for come). He says ‘Venus was so named by our countrymen as the goddess who ‘comes’ (venire) to all things; her name is not derived from the word Venustas (Latin word for beauty) but rather Venustas from it”. Venus is the goddess of love that is present in all things, that comes to all things, and beauty is derived from that presence of love in all things. It is from this, desire emanates. It makes sense really, don’t we all desire to feel loved. Don’t we want to experience it and see it in others? We all admire beauty when we see it, we desire what is beautiful to us.

The Goddess is simply an embodiment of an archetypal feminine energy that exists within all of us.

Jalaja Bonheim, Aphrodites Daughter.

In understanding these ancient texts, I’m beginning to understand where some of these negative connotations around desire, pleasure, womens bodies and sexuality come from. In the culture of no limits, those Romans in their pursuit of love, pleasure, beauty and desire, became a tad excessive in their life pursuits and it lead to many wars. They basically ruled the world at one point. A similar thing happened in the Renaissance and in the court of Louis XIV the Sun King. The pendulum swings hard sometimes when change is forged. From no limits to austerity. So a whole lot of coupling of concepts happened and before we know it, womens bodies are evil, pleasure is evil, desire is evil and leads to the downfall of empires.

Have you ever seen the painting the Birth of Venus in the Uffizi Gallery in Florence? For me it is one of the most mesmerising paintings around.

OK so back to us and current life. Pleasure is one of the best tools for self healing; it helps you reclaim your body and your life. Pleasure can start small with enjoying stimulating your 5 senses. Walking in nature, a soothing cup of tea. a gentle yin yoga practice. When it comes to sexual pleasure and healing we also start small with simple practices to bring awareness to and into your body. Using tools like breath, focus, intention, movement and sounding we create new pathways. Pleasure is healing because it creates new positive neural pathways in your nervous system. These pathways are reparative. When you build these pathways you develop a strong connection to your body and you are building and honing your capacity to listen to your body. You start to learn to like and love your body. You start to get comfortable in your own skin. You start to become more discerning about your choices of where to spend your time and attention. You learn to your honour your boundaries as your listening skills are enhanced.

The woman you knows her body, who is comfortable in her own skin, who is discerning in her choices, who honours her boundaries; she is powerful.

Mamagena has this great saying “The party starts with you’. Your healing, your growth, your sexuality, your radical self love, starts with you giving yourself permission to explore it. To shaking off that patriarchal conditioning that tells you you don’t deserve it and choosing yourself.

If you would like to bust off your patriarchal conditioning, come join me on my 6 week introductory program ReConnect. The enrolment closes tomorrow, May 11th. We start on the 12th. It’s slow and gentle paced because that is what nervous systems like. Come shake off some of that conditioning and learn some simple tools to pleasure so you can step into your personal power.

Pass this onto anyone you think might enjoy the read.

Perspective is everything

I recently read a book called ‘Cassandra Speaks’ by Elizabeth Lesser. My friend Jackie texted me and said ‘I’ve just read this book you will love it, a must read’. (thanks Jack by the way). It is a story about women. It is a story about understanding the stories of women and how they create meaning in our lives. How we act them out every day.

Words are powerful and so are lack of words. When we don’t talk about issues it creates a vacuum and a void, so people make up stories in the absence of that. I learned this pretty quickly about 25 years ago when I started doing change management work in the corporate sector. Human’s learn and communicate through stories, we have been doing it for thousands of years. Stories are powerful. You can drive change just on a narrative when you take a narrow view of an issue. Brexit anyone?

We talk about what we value in society. Think about that, especially those of you who are getting older. How do you feel about ageing and death? In a cultural context, where youth is prized. Where we don’t really want to deal with old people. Atul Gawande wrote about this a few years back in his book, Being Mortal. (another great read). You try and look for a stock photo picture of a women in her forties. I am telling you it is near impossible.

Think about the ancient stories that centre around women. There are not so many. When we are involved we are usually the supporting character or the evil person. If it is an older person in the story, she’s a woman usually evil or a witch. The evil ugly step mother, Cruella da Ville ring any bells.

Which brings me back to my main point. If we want to thrive and lead a more empowered life as a human race we really have to be able to listen, watch and read about other perspectives. I have a great coach friend Julia who is very opinionated. This is one of the things I really love about her. She is also fierce. I rarely agree with her on many issues. On the big stuff I often do though. I like her values too. I am always curious to hear what she has to say about any issue. She opens my eyes, ears and heart to other ways of looking at an issue. We can have different perspectives and still be friends.

How we frame up a dilemma in our life determines what we see and what we don’t see, which impacts on the decision we make. Being able to take up many perspectives and enquire into them broadens the capacity of what you can see. These are basic foundations of systems thinking.

The world is in a really tough place at the moment and people are in a lot of pain. How can we take more empathy for the position of another? See where they are at and ask questions. It is easy to stay in your narrow lane when you are under stress. Do a little audit of the music you listen to, the style of books you read, the media you pay attention to. It is very easy to get stuck in your bubble and do the othering thing. Othering is when we attribute negative characteristics to people or groups that differentiate them from the social norm. It is a way of negating an individuals humanity and they are seen as less worthy of dignity and respect.

Women have been ‘othered’ for years. Othering is intersectional. This means there are other marginalised groups who may also intersect with this. For example a woman of colour or a woman who is disabled, a woman of colour who is elderly. Marginalised on a few accounts. Get the picture?

So here is my tip for you. If you want a better world, if you want to be more empowered, if you want to see more compassion and kindness; it starts with you. Challenge your own thinking, seek out alternative points of view on an issue, do not just cling to your co-conspirators all the time. Listen to some new music. Try some new practices. Challenge your own internalised belief systems. I was a big Hatha Yoga devotee for years and then three years ago I discovered Kundalini Yoga by virtue of the fact I shared a room on a retreat in Mexico with a wonderful lady who is a Kundalini Yoga teacher. Gave me a new tool for mindfulness and a great friend!

You will build some new neural pathways, you will meet some new people in your life. It may help you navigate the harder stuff in life with greater ease. You may very well discover a whole treasure trove of cool parts of yourself that you never knew existed. Challenge the stories you have been told.

If you want to experience life differently, look through different lenses. You never know what you may find.

What is the the greatest lesson a woman should learn?

Tell me what do you think it is…..

I will tell you through this beautiful quote from Rupi Kaur.

That since day one, she’s already had everything she needs within herself. it’s the world that convinced her she did not.



Ever heard of the Smush? Yeah I hadn’t either until about two years ago but I had seen it in action for years. I worked in Executive Development for many years and here is what I observed. When talking about females they were often critiqued for who they were. When talking about males it was what he does. Females Being, Males Doing. Females noun, Males verb. And often with the women it was always along the lines of her being ‘too much’ or ‘not enough’. This teacher I came across, she calls it the Smush, this either being too much or not enough.

Females have been taught to play small for a lifetime. Our grandmothers taught us and their grandmothers taught them. Why? To stay safe. Do not draw attention to yourself, keep those emotions in check. This is centuries of conditioning and trauma we are holding in here. When we have been doing this those neural networks working with the nervous system about danger; they are pretty on edge.

It also causes us to repress all those emotions. Anger is an emotion that needs to move outward. When you are constantly suppressing it - because hey lets face it women’s anger is not ok - it is exhausting and depleting. You are leaking you energy all over the place when you do this. No wonder women get so tired. Is it any wonder when a woman goes through midlife transition and her body says “OK enough of this bullshit you have to let this out and do it now, she is like a detonator about to go off. All the time. There is a lot to come out.

When you have been ignoring your basic emotional cues for a lifetime and playing it small, you start to lose touch with what you are actually thinking and feeling, you get very confused. We stop being able to see the subtle stuff, our body often screams out in pain because she wants those emotions out there, where they are meant to go. We go numb, it affects our libido, we get overwhelmed.

Bodymind connection is the key. As is learning to express your desires. Complaining and nagging, they are unexpressed desires. Say that sentence to yourself out loud again. How do I express my desires I hear you ask? Practice saying what it is you really want. If you want to start practicing you desires, write ten our tonight in your journal. Every sentence has to start with ‘I want..”. Get explicit with your description of what you want. Play big.

Learning to celebrate your successes and do it with your sisters (actual sisters if you have them and friends we call sisters) is how we learn to honour each other.

I promise you, you have all it takes to step into your power and be absolutely magnificent, right there inside of you.

If you want to learn more hit reply and ask me a question or you can pass this onto someone who may be interested. I am running my ReConnect course at the end of May. It is a six week introductory online course to bodymind, to help you discover the inner wisdom and strength that you have. If you want to know more sign up to my mail list by subscribing at the bottom of my website.

Midlife Crisis

What is a Midlife Crisis all about and why is it so destructive in so many people’s lives?

The Middle passage is a time of transition in adulthood that can happen anytime from 30s through to our 70s. Most of us are familiar with it happening in our 40s and it is commonly known by the term ‘Midlife Crisis’. It is a time of internal upheaval that some handle well by going inside to explore their inner world. Others not so well when they project it outside. Outside projection shows up as trying to fight ageing, affairs, the new sports car, working out vigorously at the gym, recurrent changing of jobs, the list is long. Without a doubt there is an increased awareness of our mortality as our bodies start to show signs of age, not quite doing what they used to. For many women Peri Menopause is whacked on top of this and it can prove to be a really challenging time in life for them. It is also a time in life where health issues start to show up for many people. It is a time of absolutely huge transition and upheaval in our life that our society as a whole does very little to support.

James Hollis, the Jungian analyst, describes it as the time where we transition to our second adulthood. Our first, which he believes is from about twelve years to forty, has been driven by ego. We don’t really know who we are and how to ‘adult’ so we just copy. Our sense of self comes via external validation. We copy our parents, external role models at work; it is a time that we are focused on establishing ourselves. At work by climbing the hierarchy of the organisation, buying property, cars, having children. Driven by the ego we constantly project outwards our unconscious parts of self we have not integrated, the parts of ourselves we split off from to survive. Our original essence that was squashed down to fit in with the demands of parents, family, culture, the world around us. Our childhood patterns created in times of overwhelm or potential abandonment to survive. There is no doubt that the cultural contexts that surround us, with their constant worship of youth, do little to support or encourage us to move toward this transition and see it as the step to emotional freedom that it is for most people.

Our second adulthood according to Hollis is about finding our purpose and realisation of who we really are. It starts when our projections start to dissolve and in search for an answer to the question, “Who am I?”. How do you know when this happens? My observation of coaching many people in this transition over the last 10 years is they start to question everything in their life. Their rose colored glasses have come off and they start to see life as it really is. They start to see through the politics and machiavellian behaviour in the workplace. They start to see side of their partner they haven’t taken notice of before. They actually start to recognise that their partner is human. They get a bit rebellious really. They yearn for change. Some people get depressed because they yearn for change but are so bogged down by the constraints of their current lifecycle they can see no way that they possibly can make changes to their life.

“‘After the Middle Passage, no one can say where the journey will take us. We only know that we must accept responsibility for ourselves, that the path taken by others is not necessarily for us, and that what we are ultimately seeking lies within, not out there’.
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— James Hollis

The turbulence is they psyche's way of pointing us towards integration of self and wholeness. Our bodies are strong and wise, they seek wholeness and healing always. They are constantly sending us messages to point us toward this. Our psyche is saying to us you know those childhood parts of yourself you split off, it is time to go bring them back. Those emotions you were told were unacceptable, go find them and learn to experience them. That nervous system of yours, it needs rewiring so you really know what safety, love and belonging feel like in your body. I describe my body as the home I live in. The home of my soul. Do you know psyche is the greek word for soul? Our soul wants to have a good second half of life, it is telling us ok it is time for you to sort this out.

I’ve spent years studying adult development through a development psychology perspective. If I look at it through a developmental lens it is a time where we grow the shape of our thinking and change the pair of glasses that we see the world through. We move from seeing it as shades of grey to a colorful kaleidoscope of colors that move constantly in and out of each other. Do you remember Kaleidoscopes we had when we were children? I loved them. We are now starting to see the complexity of life in all its color and it is hard to learn the skills we need to thrive because it requires some big changes in our life.

The turbulence is normal and it is ok. It is perfectly normal to start to question. The answers are not outside of you, they are within. Midlife asks of us not to look outside of ourselves but within. Into our inner world. The answers will not be found outside of us. Not in a new relationship with another, not in a new car, not in a new face or new clothes. They reside within us. We are multi-dimensional beings, it is about learning to love all the parts of ourselves and accepting them. The middle passage is a journey to our 'home' and finding the divine within it. It will be hard and challenging, you will lose some friendships along the way because you will simply outgrow people. That is OK, walk away gracefully.

What are some of the ways you can partake in this inner journey? Well there is coaching of course, this is a journey I guide people through. Some people need therapy because they have a lot of trauma in their body that needs to be worked with slowly and carefully so the nervous system can be rewired ( in particular those who suffer from C-PTSD and PTSD). Somatic Experiencing and EMDR are two modalities that work specifically with trauma in a slow way. Talk therapy like Cognitive Behavioural Therapy can be useful for some people. Embodied movement particularly for women, that brings them into connection with their Yoni, all their reproductive organs and connects them with their adult feminine power is an excellent practice. Feldenkrais, pilates and ecstatic dance are different practices that bring us back into our body. Breathwork is an excellent practice to work with trauma and unwind old habits and patterns. Mindfulness practices are excellent to start us on our journey to lead us on the journey inward. Traditional meditation where one sits very still are great, they are very masculine by nature. There are more dynamic forms of meditative practice like using a jade egg or kundalini yoga that uses movement, mantra and breath to expand conscious and create capacity in the nervous system.

Finally it is helpful to do this work in groups if you can. I know that sisterhood is a powerful container for healing and growth. There are womens and mens circles that exist everywhere. You can start one up. We move through rites of passage in a more supported and grounded way when we are supported by community.

The list is long. You can find something that works for you and it maybe that you work with a couple of modalities at once. The most important thing is that when you feel the turbulence, you start doing something to set yourself up well for your transition to your second half of life.

Please forward this onto a friend who may be interested. If you are interested in being coached through this transition please contact me for a free consultation call. I will be launching a course this year on Midlife transition for Women that supports transition through Midlife and Menopause. If you are interested sign up to my mail list so you receive information about it.

Maiden to Mother Transition

When a young girl goes through Menarche, she is asked to let go of her childish ways so as to accept her maturing as a menstruating woman. In many indigenous cultures she is welcomed through ceremony and accepted into a circle of adult women in her tribe. This has been largely forgotten in western culture. Menstruation is still shrouded in mystery, shame and secrecy. Cultural norms mean women have to hide what is a massive part of their life.

During pregnancy and childbirth a new mother is asked to let go of egoic behaviour that will prevent her from giving selflessly, gently and open heartedly to her new baby. She is forced to face her shadow or perceived negative attributes that she has buried deep underground. This requires us to get extremely vulnerable. It can be a long and painfull transition. Through this transition you birth your own Inner Mother.

It requires us to get familiar with all the different parts of us - those we like and those parts we don't. It takes a lot of conscious exertion of energy to keep those parts we don't like in our unconscious. This plays out in our conscious life. These are child parts of us that were not loved or acknowledged when we were children, so we fragmented them off into our unconscious to stay safe. To survive we adopted behaviours used as strategies to make our way in the world many of them focused at keeping us in control. When we can really embrace those dark parts and learn to love them we emerge from this transition more whole.

Finding these underworld parts asks something different of us. We cannot access our unconscious through our rational and logical part of our brain. We need to go into our primal and limbic parts of our brain to feel for them in our body. So this work requires us to learn to be in our body; to experience all of our emotions in a grounded way. When we learn to love and accept our dark parts we stop projecting them onto other women. We start to heal our sisterhood wounds which in turn, helps us naturally support other women. We can see and own the messy side of ourselves and not get sabotaged by it.

Why is this transition so important? When we don't accept our dark parts we project them onto others. When we can't be with our own emotions in a grounded way and learn to self-soothe, we cannot soothe the new baby in our arms who comes into this world with an unregulated nervous system. For the development of healthy attachment patterns with our babies, we have to co-regulate their nervous systems to help them learn and grow. We teach them slowly how to self soothe and provide that sense of safety in their nervous system through our attunement to them, when they cry from hunger, tiredness or needing a nappy change. Learning to feel safe to be vulnerable aids in our personal development because we start to ask questions and seek to understand what is going on. When we heal our sisterhood wounds we learn to support other women in community and be able to hold space for them. When we heal our sisterhood wounds we open the door for our sexual empowerment.

Our journey through rites of passage is different to that of men. Women go into a dark place, the underworld. The vulnerability they experience in their descent is challenging and in the stripping back of parts of themselves they don’t need anymore, they plant the seeds for their new expanded self to grow. It is like a tree that sparks from a seed and first it grows roots down in the dark of the earth so that when it grows taller and its branches spread wider, it has a good base to support its growth. Every time we go through a transition in life we go to this place, the time it takes to transition and the degree of transformation is different every time.

When many women go back to work after parental leave many feel quite disconnected because they know they have changed, yet very few workplaces acknowledge that change or provide transition support for them to go back. Often many women experience a huge degree of cognitive dissonance because of this; they have to pretend they don’t have children at work. It can be a very confusing time for many women, they cannot just turn off the mother part of themselves. Why should they?

There is so little support for women post partum to work on all of this. Most of the support is physical and maybe looking for signs of depression. When we support our mothers in society we foster a healthy community and society. Our children are our future.

Well good news. Dr Nic Pawley and I will be launching our online course next year to help you create your inner mother. This course will focus on the bio/psycho/social aspects of your personal development. You will learn embodied practices to develop a healthy grounded relationship with your emotions; you will learn about post-partum health from a TCM perspective; the changing rythms of womens sexuality throughout their life; how to work on your unconscious childhood patterning that may be holding you back and how to create your inner mother.

If you are interested let us know. If you know someone who may be interested forward this email onto them.

Coming Home to ourselves

This year has been testing for all of us. Being locked down is not an enjoyable process but there is always a silver lining for many. Spending more time with your family, appreciating how much you enjoy your work and working with others, valuing your friendships. For some people they have realised that they really enjoy working from home and spending more time with their family; participating in helping in the home with cooking or gardening. We’ve also been illuminated about many issues that our western lifestyle allows us to live in ignorance of. Corona Virus is bad but every year thousands of children in developing economies die from diarrhoea. The environment, womens rights, racism, child abuse, domestic violence. It is all there every day, how is it that we seem to lived oblivious to it. Some people are finding this really overwhelming to have all of this in plain sight, how do you ground yourself?

Come back home, to your body. I always think my body is the house that I live in. So often we look outside or ourselves to find joy and pleasure. That big holiday somewhere exotic, new clothes, you get the picture. How do we find pleasure and joy in the ordinary and within our home? Find what is alive within you. Find the joy within you, find the support within you.

It is hard to take the perspective that values the ordinary, the boring and the everyday in our life. How do we learn to appreciate it, value it and find the joy within it?

I’ve created a little body meditation for you to ground yourself when you are feeling overwhelmed and sick of the ordinary, the boring, the everyday.

How culture can shape our narrative around transition

I’ve been watching Grace and Frankie on Netflix. If you haven’t seen it I can recommend it, it is very funny. The common complaint by the two female lead characters, played by Jane Fonda and Lily Tomlin, is that as women age they become invisible. Their needs do not matter.

When it comes to transitions and life stages, what is valued by a culture tells you a lot about how they think about it. What is said or not said, gives you implicit clues about how to behave during that transition. So in a culture like ours where no one talks about menopause, what clues are given to women about how to behave? Pretend that it is not happening, try to avoid it at all costs. Be quiet, stay invisible and try to ride it out. Would women’s experiences be different if we talked about it openly and embraced the transition supporting each other in community with each other? I think it would.

What about a mother returning to work from parental leave. When her Boss says I am so glad you are back, I have so much for you to do. With no acknowledgement of the monumental transition she is in the middle of, learning to be a mother, implying just be your old self. Well this is very challenging for many women because that old self does not exist anymore. She is a more expanded version of herself. Is the message yes lets just ignore the fact you have children and never talk about it? Many parents complain about the frowns they get as they rush out the door at 5pm to pick up children from childcare or after school care. Is it any wonder that so many women leave large organisations to join the world of small business working for themselves. Not only is this about flexibility but they can actually be themselves, care for their children and not pretend they do not have any.

What has a rite of passage you have experienced taught you about how to behave and how our culture values it?

What archetype of a woman is the most valued in our society? It is certainly not the wise woman, who is ignored and marginalised. I don’t think many mothers feel their whole self is acknowledged either. What is valued is the fertile 25 year old female. This is reflected in media, advertising, fashion, range of cosmetics and the list goes on.

Each transition women have builds upon the previous one. Motherhood goes for a long time and crosses over the midlife transition through Perimenopause which can go on for many years. The Perimenopause journey is an opportunity for rebirth and reconnection. The average age of menopause is currently 50-51 but it can occur earlier or later than this. There we enter the second half of our life, known as Maga time. This is a time of immense productivity and creativity for many women. The Crone phase which used to follow mother in the days when women only lived to 45, is now acknowledged to occur when women reach 70, this is the time for slowing down.

The Maga time is when many women really ‘hit their straps’ in terms of creating new businesses, birthing new passion products and for many finding their voice and using it. So let us start embracing this phase, enjoying our greying hair and the changes to our body and acknowledging the transformational benefits of this stage. Lets start supporting each other, transitions are easier when supported in the container of community

Women have another option. They can aspire to be wise, not merely nice; to be competent, not merely helpful; to be strong, not merely graceful; to be ambitious for themselves, not merely for themselves in relation to men and children. They can let themselves age naturally and without embarrassment, actively protesting and disobeying the conventions that stem from this society's double standard about ageing. Instead of being girls, girls as long as possible, who then age humiliatingly into middle-aged women, they can become women much earlier - and remain active adults, enjoying the long, erotic career of which women are capable, far longer. Women should allow their faces to show the lives they have lived. Women should tell the truth.

Susan Sontag (1972)

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Rites of Passage, the world needs wise women

I was talking to a coach friend of mine this week who also works with people through life transitions. She has been doing training to be a Death Doula. That is, a person who supports an individual and their family when the individual is dying. We were talking about how we as a society have become fearful of death as we outsourced to funeral homes. I recalled a story my grandmother told me some years ago. When she was a teen, the young child living next door passed away and his body was in the front room of the house and they went in to see him before the funeral. She said he looked so beautiful and angelic and that it was a very special experience to see a human like this. She felt we had lost connection with death as a natural part of the life cycle. A passage of life.

Why did we lose the ritual aspect of rites of passage in our lives? We move from childhood to become teenagers, then to become adults. We become parents, then we go through midlife and we become older members of society before we pass away. We used to celebrate these transitions supported by community around us. We used to relish in becoming wiser and older. Why did this change? Some cultures still hold rituals around some transitions like becoming a teenager, but on the whole it seems rarer.

I’ve worked in transition for most of my career in various shapes and forms, I studied adult development for many years. The question that has always been on my mind is ‘Why do some people keep growing and developing through adulthood and some get stuck?’ There are so many reasons for this. One perspective I’ve come to is this. Many people become stuck in the adolescent to adult transition. It shows up as very black and white thinking, limited ability to cope with ones own emotions, let along the emotions of others and there are many more observable blocks. When we stopped supporting each other in these transitions, we stopped having rituals and celebrations to pass these milestones. We stopped acknowledgement and acceptance of the different stages of life. Rituals create gateways for transition.

The container of a community supporting us through transition, supports and encourages us to shed parts of self we don’t need any longer and step into and embrace the new aspects of ourselves to navigate this new stage of life. It creates safety in a time of internal turbulence. We live with a context of a cultural narrative that celebrates and worships youth, is it any wonder that individuals will do anything to avoid ageing. That so many people struggle through parenthood and midlife transition. The whole cosmetics industry is built around avoiding ageing. I have heard many young mothers I have coached over the years say I just want to get back to work and be my old self. Guess what, she is gone, you have created a whole new part of yourself now; your inner mother, an expanded version of you. Embrace her.

There is not much support culturally nor is there community support to embrace transitions. We rarely acknowledge the changes in others. These transitions are turbulent, if it does not feel safe, if we don’t understand it or feel understood, why would we embrace it?

The world needs its wise women right now. Now more than ever we need community to thrive and grow. I want to rewrite what it means to age and come into feminine wisdom and creativity. What does it means to be a 50, 60 or 70 year old woman to come into the full feminine expression of who you are. As wise women how can we come together to show our compassion, leadership, knowledge creativity and wisdom. How can we create a loving and better world? What are the roles we need to take up?

Instead of making older women invisible, which is the common experience many women talk about, what if we actually reimagined the role of older women in society? What if their role was to lead community based projects? What if their role was to ensure that younger generations thrived? What if their role was to create these community containers to support younger generations to embrace the different life stages and feel safe to keep growing, learning and evolving?

My work is about supporting women through motherhood and midlife transitions. I focus on helping women transition to become wise women. As I see turning 50 knocking on my door I love where I am in life. I appreciate every day that I am still here, that I can swim in the sea, hug a tree and laugh and cry with my family and friends. Ageing kind of rocks I think.

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Finding your inner light

I was going for a walk last week with my husband. In front of us was a man with his young son who would have been about four years old. As they held hands and walked along the little boy danced, kicked his legs out wiggled his arms. He was full of energy, he literally could not stop moving. It reminded me of Fred Astaire and Gene Kelly, albeit a more clumsy version, in those 1950s movies where they would sing and dance down the street. I said to my husband, remember when our boys were like that at the same age. He said yes and then it gets bashed out of them, they are told that they have to walk ‘normally’ and sit and be quiet. They literally have so much energy they are jumping out of their skin. Then they get to school and they have to sit still and be quiet.

Why do we do this to children? Why do we take them out of their bodies, insist they ignore their natural impulses to move and run. Disconnect from pleasure. Ignore their natural impulses to explore the natural environment and the wonder and awe you can find in nature if you really pay attention.

As adults we can get so caught up in own suffering, we can spend an eternity searching outside of ourselves when our suffering seems unbearable and obstacles seem insurmountable. We bypass and self soothe with shopping, alcohol and any myriad of other available avenues to bypass dealing with our own emotions and to be present and vulnerable.

I tell you something simple yet quite profound I learned from one of my coaching teachers Layla Martin. You have everything you need right inside of you.

So how to you find your own inner light within?

You pursue your pleasure. I am not necessarily talking about sexual pleasure even though that is definitely one avenue of pleasure to pursue. I am talking about what is pleasurable to you that nourishes and sustains you. Walking in nature, dancing, mindfulness practices that involve movement and breath; these are great practices to connect you with sources of nourishment. How do you connect and listen to your body? How do you learn to be with your emotions and pay attention to what your feelings are trying to tell you.

None of us have been taught to do this. It is almost as if we have been implicitly told that pleasure is a no go zone.

Where do you start?

A good place to start is working out what is it that you really want. A simple desires practice, spend 5 minutes writing down your desires, start every sentence with ‘I want….’. If you don’t know what you want, it is hard to connect with what brings you pleasure.

One of my favourite pleasure practices is just to sit out in nature. Maybe you could try to sit out in nature and lye down on the grass and just breath and imagine all the energy from the earth. moving up from the earth, up your legs into your core. Notice your breath moving in and out of your nose. See what that feels like. Dancing is another practice that we seem to stop doing in early adulthood. Why? Our bodies are made to move. Try dancing for 10 minutes a day. Swimming is one of my favourites particularly in the sea, just floating in the water.

We have so many resources available to us within and at our fingertips. Next time you zone out on your phone and start online shopping, stop yourself and go for a walk outside instead. Breathe in the fresh air.

Grounding through body meditation

A Body Meditation for Wise Women

These past two weeks have been really intense energetically. The protesting in the USA has been felt all around the world. This is a really important time for black people, who have been oppressed for hundreds of years, to be able to express their voice. It is also important for all of us to self-reflect and challenge our own thinking and biases. There are some great resources around that I will include at the end of the email. It’s not the job of BIPOC people to educate us, we have to do the work ourselves.

In this time, many people are feeling very ungrounded. There is so much change going on. In Australia we had bushfires, then CoVid and now social upheaval. So many structures and systems are crumbling or being dismantled. These are old systems and structures that stifle change and preserve patriarchal control. It’s important to stay grounded, in our bodies so we can navigate this turbulence. There are many ways you can do this.

Sometimes I find walking in bare feet on the earth really helpful, sometimes just laying on the grass can be really helpful. One of the most helpful practices I use is this pelvic bowl meditation for women. I made this up on the spur of the moment in a coaching session and I’ve continued to use it again and again because it has been so helpful to so many of my clients.

Our pelvic bowel connects the top and bottom parts of our body. It contains all of our reproductive organs. For women, our womb, cervix and ovaries are particularly strong energy centres and if we can tune into them they become a great source of wisdom. I also find the more we connect with them we build these strong neural networks in our brain and it increases our sense of agency in the world. Now is the time we can work on growing our personal agency. The world needs its wise women right now.

The best way to do this practice is lying down. So set yourself up on your bed or maybe build a nest of pillows. You might want to light a candle or burn some incense. Create a space that provides you whatever you need to feel safe and comfortable, where you can practice in silence without interruption.

Resources that you might find helpful

There is a really great book by Layla Saad called Me and White Supremacy. I personally have found this very helpful to explore my own biases. The second book I can recommend is Growing up Aboriginal in Australia by Anita Heiss. The third resource I encourage you to explore is the work of Rachel Cargle, she is an African American academic, writer and whose work explores the intersection of race and womanhood. She has many great resources on her website and youtube. Finally the Victorian Women’s Trust has some great anti-racism resources for you to explore. These are primarily Australian references on their website but they also recommend some USA based resources to explore.

Being with our Emotions

The last 3 months have been really trying emotionally for so many people. We humans are wired for social connection, the social engagement part of our nervous system which is in our face, neck and the back of our neck is designed that way. We are designed to attune to each other through our facial expressions.

Now we find ourselves in a time where we can see few of our loved ones close up. I don’t know about you but I am really missing hugs. The Corona Virus also makes us face our own mortality. The whole situation has brought so much fear up for so many people. Fear is a very difficult emotion for many people to process, we tend to push it away and try ignore it. Yet it sill runs in the background when we do this.

How can we be with our Emotions?

We let ourselves feel the emotion, we let it run. This can be hard when we have repressed them for years.

One of the best exercises I have found to let ourselves be with them is to access them via the Felt Sense. The Felt Sense is somatic language that we can use to describe the sensations we are feeling inside our bodymind. I say bodymind because they are one thing, we aren’t walking heads.

So I have prepared a practice for you to use that you can find below that you can use to scan your body and practice tuning into your felt sense and the sensations and emotions. You can download it. Also there is a felt sense dictionary which comes from Peter Levine who is one of the founders of somatic experiencing.

How do you use it?

Firstly, review the felt sense dictionary so you can get a sense of the felt sense words you use to describe the sensations in your body. It will probably resonate with you because when you ask a child how they feel inside they often use these words. Itchy, wiry, purple, cloudy. They seem silly and culturally, the english language is not really geared to this terminology, to describe emotions and feelings. Many latin based languages that are typically more emotive, are better in these descriptions.

Then lay in a comfortable spot, put the audio on and follow the instructions. As you scan your body from top to bottom or vice versa, pay attention to what you notice, tension, stiffness, discomfort and really hone in on in and how it actually feels.

What you may notice as you pay attention to these sensations is your body may start to relax or it may bring up the emotion underneath the sensation. So if you feel like you need to cry, thats OK. Let it out. If you notice anger come up bash the pillow next to you. If you feel Fear and then need to move, go for a run or a walk. Whatever comes up is OK.

Midlife - what is it really all about?

I felt compelled to write this blog post because I’ve noticed a few people around me lately who are experiencing early signs of midlife transition and not really realising this is what is going on for them. Midlife is an extraordinary portal and rite of passage that both men and women experience that can start anytime from around 40 years of age through to mid 50s.

It is a time in life when we start to ask many questions, a time of refinement and reflection when our psyche gives us a nudge to look back and look forward at the same time. To ask ourselves, what aspects of ourselves do we need to let go of. What aspects of ourselves that have kept us functioning in the world up until now, no longer serve us going forward. Brene Brown calls it the great unraveling.

It’s your psyche giving you a chance to heal childhood wounding, heal pain around old losses and layers of pain around early relationships. We are also faced with our own mortality as we see our parents ageing or dying, friends becoming ill or dying.

It is a liminal time that may feel groundless to many people. One of the points of midlife is to learn to tolerate discomfort of the unknown until the path forward becomes clearer and known.

Many women have menopause to cope with as well that also brings up lots of questions and discomfort with changes in our body. But here is the thing about that. It is only your fertility ending. In our western culture where the narrative around menopause is death, we seem to assume the woman has died also. Many women comment that they suddenly feel invisible. In all actuality, it is a massively transformative time for women because many of them feel they are just getting started when it comes to their bigger purpose in life. Just because your fertility is ending doesn’t mean you stop being a sexual being. For many women they feel closer to their sexuality than they ever had before and their feminine life force energy is awakened.

When you don’t understand the discomfort of life transitions and rites of passage, it can be easy to jump onto the first external source of relief that might make you feel better. Obsessive exercise and worrying about your figure. Don’t get me wrong exercise is great but actually, this is time time in your life when you need to be really intentional in your exercise because you musculoskeletal system is undergoing a shift. A new car, a new partner, cosmetic work on your face, spending lots of money on clothes and jewellery. All classic relief escape hatches. You know what? All the answers are inside of you.

When you can sit with the unknown and grieve habits and patterns that don’t serve you any longer, you start to birth a new version of yourself. Embedded in the darkness are the seeds of the new adornments or parts of yourself, you need to create to go back out into the world and bloom. New habits, interests, ways of being. Many women in particular find themselves reconnecting with visions and purpose from their youth that were put to the side.

Our second half of life is about meaning and purpose. When you can learn to resource the grief of the old with self-compassion and approach the unnavigated path forward with great curiosity, you will discover your true reason for being here. The path is different for men and women. The heroines journey is different to the hero’s. But ultimately this rite of passage is about the same discovery.

If this post resonated with you pass it onto a friend who might benefit from it. I coach women and couples to navigate this journey. If you are interested in talking to me about coaching head over to my website and book yourself in for a complimentary call to see if coaching will help you navigate midlife.

Maga Season

You have probably heard of the feminine archetypes of maiden, mother and crone but have you heard of the Maga? Maiden, Mother and Crone were created many years ago when women had babies at 15 and died at 45, so many never reached Menopause. Now that we live longer it has been understood that there is another major rite of passage that women go through in midlife, that is the Maga. This is the transition through midlife, through menopause to our crone years.

Maga is our Autumn season, our harvest season. Maiden is Spring, Mother is Summer and Crone is Winter. When you think about the seasons of our life and what we are doing in those years, that makes a lot of sense. In Autumn we reap the rewards of spring and summer growth, harvest crops to wind down for the winter. Trees in Autumn drop their leaves, they don’t need them anymore and they prepare to hibernate for winter before spring comes and they grow new leaves again. This is a good way to think about our midlife journey through midlife and perimenopause. In their book The Womens Wheel of Life, Elizabeth Davis and Carole Leonard break down archetypes into 12 sub types. The Maga season is represented Amazon, Matriarch and Sorcerous.

In Portuguese Maga means Sorcerous. She who practices Alchemy. Alchemy is transformation and Maga time is a very transformative time for most women. Think of the alchemy and energy that is required by the earth to create gemstones, the chaos that ensures when a star is being created in the universe. Think of the transformation from caterpillar to butterfly. Maga season is a time that may have all of these qualities. Where a woman learns to love all the parts of herself, dark and light. Where she can blossom into the full feminine expression of herself. Jane Hardwicke Collinges has introduced us to the concept of Maga which she learned from her teacher Dr. Cedar Barstow.

It is a time for review and reflection in our life. To review where we have over abundance in our life. Maybe there are aspects of ourselves, patterns of behaviour that were developed in childhood years as a strategy for protection or survival that are not going to serve us well going forward.

Many women birth and create businesses or new work in this time period. They feel a strong yearning to do work that has greater meaning and purpose for them, work that has a broader community impact. The great thing is they have the energy to do this. As their menstrual cycle starts to wane and finish, all the energy that went into that every month and was lost during menstruation or went into creating babies, is now available to use. It is not surprising that we see so many Maga Women who have an enhanced sense of vitality about themselves. It is time to harvest your knowledge and work experience gained so far, to create something for yourself in the second part of your life.

It is time to review and reflect your choices in how you exercise and care for your body. As you grow and shape your life through this time, your body may be giving you some strong signals in the form of pain and discomfort. Soothing emotional distress with wine and chocolate is not going to help in the long term. That just gives your nervous system a quick hit. We need to keep moving our body but we don’t have the energy we had in our twenties or thirties. As our hormones decrease, collagen production does too. You see the impact on your skin. Your joints, muscles, tendons, ligaments they need collagen to help repair at night. They also need good quality sleep. This means you need to choose wisely, exercise that honours where your body is now.

How long does Maga season take? It will take however long it needs to take. We can’t predict the onset of menstruation, it happens slowly over time; we cannot predict how long labor will take in birth and the same goes for menopause arriving. There is no magic pill to fix us in this time. You have to take a big picture view.

The little nudges that you are being given by your body. When we ignore them, say like hanging onto our youth, things start to happen that feel uncomfortable. This is difficult when we live in a culture, particularly in the western world, that is obsessed with youth. Where age is not respected and seemingly older women become invisible. You can change this by choosing to embrace it and choosing pleasure in your life. What brings you pleasure?

Where can I start my review? If you took a systemic view of your life and came from the bigger picture, looking at the whole and parts of it you might start to see some patterns. Look from multiple perspectives; emotional, physical, mental, sexual. What can you see? Look at the tapestry of your life.

Often this is a time when women want to spend a lot of reflective time on their own reviewing their life and being supported by other women in sisterhood. These are both vitally important. The alone time creates a space for us to really get to know ourselves and have a relationship with ourselves. The sisterhood is important because humans are social creates who need the connections with others. We all need connection and community, where we feel understood and appreciated. We need other wise women, the crones in our life, to help us through this path, through story telling. To help us understand how we can embody our wisdom to understand our passions and purpose. To help us understand how we can serve our communities.

If you would like to explore Archetypes further, I can recommend reading the Womens Wheel of Life. If you are interested in reading more about perimenopause transition, I can highly recommend “The Wisdom of Menopause” by Christiane Northup and “New Menopausal Years the wise woman way” by Susan Weed. Both offer a multi- perspective view of this transition.

If you are interested in the hormone and collagen relationship you can click on the menu above to go to my podcasts. Episode 2 with Sarah Smith is about physical changes to our body in midlife and we talk about this.

The art of receiving

This time of year can be hard. It is busy with Christmas celebrations, buying presents and family get togethers. In the southern hemisphere we have double the pressure to finish up things at work because many people are breaking to go on summer holidays. The thought of family celebrations can be stressful. It is hard when you have done lot of work on your inner child to find yourself back in the family system that caused all those triggers in the first place. We often get caught in so much busy time, that we ignore the signs our body is giving us to slow down and just be. So I thought for my last blog for the year that I would write about receiving.

Receiving is a key to Women’s Empowerment. It is almost impossible to be nourished and practice self-care properly if we cannot receive and we cannot nourish and care for others if we have nothing to give. Being receptive is also a critical element of community; when we receive we participate in an exchange in community that sustains all aspects of community. There is little reflection or understanding of receiving in most people’s worlds; it is not valued as something we need to learn. Self Care is something that few people do well. We seem to value giving more than receiving and often do it in a way that makes being receptive seem to be a sign of inadequacy or neediness. In the book the Tao Te Ching, the feminine expression of receiving is the counter balance to the masculine expressiveness. We all have a masculine and feminine energy within us, regardless of gender.

The tools of listening, intuition and attentiveness without action, are all expressions of receiving. They will deepen our capacity to nourish ourselves. We can get stuck in old repetitive habits and patterns if we cannot receive. How do women today who are filled up with conditioned thoughts and values of how they should show up in the world learn to receive? How do women whose voices has rarely been heard learn to listen? Well it takes a lot of practice for your nervous system to feel safe to receive.

One thing I learned from my practice of Qi Gong is that a womans receptivity is a strong part of her energetic makeup. Men’s Energy fields are strongly focused around their heads, often the front of their head. Interestingly they often are focused on tasks. Womens energy fields are often dispersed. They radiate out in many directions. They take and receive energy from many different perspectives, their field more open, less restricted. Is all this openness the reason for the strong sense of knowing and intuition that women have? Women seem to connect more easily . We connect with our children through our bodies, we connect to the earth easily, we foster connections with people. Does our natural affinity for connection and receptivity mean we are good at it. Not necessarily.

Many physical things on the planet, take in and receive. Plants, Trees, Animals all take in some form of food or oxygen. We humans just produce and do. Do, Do, Do. Women are conditioned in our society to give, give, give. We habitually nourish others and we leak a lot of our own energy. We attune to our children to support them. When you stay in this pattern of nurturing others, you can easily forget that you have a self that is separate to them. A self that needs to be cared for and maintained. I recall many years ago a client asked me to design a workshop that would teach his team to be human beings not human doings. It was a challenge but we got there.

When you start a practice of self-care and take time every day to do something for yourself, you open up to a new paradigm of receiving. You can start to discern what feels good and what does not, what and who supports you and what and who does not. You experience an increase in life force energy in all of your energy centres. Your body fills with pleasure. Give yourself permission to practice receiving every day. Give yourself permission to hold this energy within every day, it will sustain you. The more you practice this, the more comfortable your nervous system (you) will feel with practicing receiving.

What are some practices of self care that you can give to yourself? When someone compliments you, receive it, thank them. Think about the food that you put in your body is it nourishing? Take walks in nature, nature is a huge source of energetic nourishment. Dancing is a huge source of energy for women. Or you could try some form of meditation. It doesn’t have to be a meditation that is still, there are many forms of dynamic meditation that are nourishing. Ten minutes of Breathwork will do wonders for your body. This holiday season practice breaking some old patterns. If you are tired, choose yourself first over going to parties or meetings that will not serve you well. Cut down on screen time. Focus on spending time with people who support you and love you. Spend some time being quiet and resting.

Women have so much capacity to be receptive if they draw in and listen to themselves. Listen to your body, this will translate to listening to your emotions, your truth, your creativity, your desires and your knowledge. The listening happens through your entire system, all your energy centres but the primary centre is your heart. Listening to yourself is an act of radical self care. It takes courage, commitment and time. Women thrive when we listen inwardly and align to our own wisdom through our listening.

Womens Empowerment

Womens empowerment, this is such a broad topic I don’t think I can write about it in one post. So maybe I should call this blog womens empowerment part 1. There are many sources of power, we are surrounded by it. Many of us believe that to be empowered we have to find that power outside of ourselves. We search constantly for it over the course of a lifetime, outside of ourselves and we never really find it.

The story that we have been told by popular culture and the media is that power is defined by; how you look, how much money you make, who you are dating or married to and your trajectory in your career as defined by an external hierarchical structure.

This is an old model of power. It is a model driven by fear and comparison.

We worry about whether we are enough or too much. Am I pretty enough? Sexy enough? Am I too outspoken? Too loud? Too intense? If you have used your sexuality to get what you want then you would worry about getting older and no longer being attractive. In a youth obsessed culture like ours, that worships teenage maidens, we disguise our natural radiance with make-up, botox, facelifts, clothes. The list goes on.

We try to be who we believe we are supposed to be. We constantly pursue personal development to give ourselves permission to make change. Ever had that thought, 'Once I do this course then I’ll be able to make changes I want in my life’, or ‘When I hit this goal then I can do what I want to do’. We contort ourselves to fit an image because we have a belief system that we are not right just the way we are. Focusing on how we should be on the outside or what we should achieve makes us unhappy, crazy, disconnected from ourself and often just downright confused.

What if I told you that you have all the resources you need to empower yourself inside of you. That the new model of power is to connect with yourself, to discover all the different parts of you, to love and accept them even the ones you don’t like so much. That connecting with your pleasure, your sexuality, your authentic self and your capacity to love will empower you like nothing you have experienced before. That it is all there right inside of you, everything you have ever needed.

This is challenging to read and challenging to put into action. We live in a culture of always on, busy all the time, that leads to burnout. Organisations financially reward us for it. Who has time to lean into themselves? You will have to be brave and give yourself permission to not be productive. You will have to give yourself permission to bask in your own pleasure and doing this has not been encouraged in our culture. The cultural warnings we received about pleasure and your desires include ‘be careful what you want because you might get addicted’ or ‘you will just keep wanting more and more’. This carries into spirituality, beware of your desires, they are a bottomless pitt, never-ending downward spiral. Let’s be clear I am not talking about desires that are not healthy for you. I am talking about knowing what you really want in your life.

Women have been treated as second class citizens for thousands of years. We have been maltreated, persecuted and just not considered equal. This gets passed down through generations. Most women do not have a natural sense of safety in their bodies. The impact of sexual trauma, disconnection from our body and unfulfilling sex, because we have not been taught how to ask for what we want, has leaked out of the bedroom and into our daily life. It has shut down our voice. It has shut down a massive source of creativity and energy. It disempowers us in life. We shrink, hide, play small just to stay safe. We lose our voice and our capacity to ask for what it is we really desire in our life. We have become afraid to ask.

What if you could ask for what you want in life.

What if you could learn what a full body YES and NO felt like in your body.

What if you could ask to slow down or stop what you were doing altogether.

What if you could get really clear about what you do want and what you don’t want in your life.

What if you recognised that your sexual energy is a massive source of radiance, vibrancy, energy and creativity in your life.

What if you could pursue one pleasurable activity every day in your life and you used that energy generated from that to fuel you to create the life you desire.

What if you could learn the art of satiation. What it feels like inside of your body to feel satisfied and content and let yourself reside there for a few minutes and then for stretches at a time and it felt safe.

I don’t know about you but all of that sounds like a pretty empowered woman to me.

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PS - If you are super interested in this topic keep your eyes posted over summer. I’ve been recording podcasts that I am going to release over summer. There is a podcast on the topic ‘Orgasm as source of Power’, that I recorded with my friend and fellow coach Julia Lally, coming your way.

Healing our Inner Child

One of the biggest challenges we face in our growth and development as adults is healing our childhood wounding.  That is, the traumatic impact of both emotional and psychological wounds we incur in childhood.  

This wounding is most often the result of our needs not being met by our parents.  Everyone that I work with has experienced this, as I have too. It is not because our parents were terrible parents, although some people’s parents were horrible.  It is that many of our parents are not perfect, they are people who were trying to work, raise children and have a life. They cannot focus all their attention on us 100% of the time.  They also had their own inner child wounds and at times they were parenting from that part of themselves, not their adult parts. The trauma I am talking about that we experienced as a result of this ranges from being criticised for not getting a great test score on a test at school, to being ignored, to in some cases, emotional, physical and sexual abuse.

Trauma expert, Dr Bessel van der Kolk, whom I have had the pleasure of being taught by, says in his book “The Body Keeps the Score”, ‘Trauma causes people to remain stuck in interpreting the present in light of an unchanging past’.

We develop strategies, habits and patterns of behaviour, that are often very reactive and they become our dominant approaches to cope and live our life.  Thus often repeated patterns of feedback are given, repeated incidences of relationships dynamics occurring are often a sign that you are operating from your inner child self.  Anything that gets you a bit fired up or ‘triggered’ is often a good sign that old programs maybe of shame, inadequacy, abandonment, betrayal or feeling unsafe are operating. These programs always have stories attached to them that allow us to feel in control of what is actually going on.  So much so, that we attract the same situations and act them out on a daily basis.

When we are unaware of these child parts of ourselves running our life we are actually walking around projecting a shadow part of ourselves onto others. Our inner narrative might be ‘the bad person who did that to me’, ‘the bad luck responsible for our suffering’.  In some cases we get feedback in the workplace, giving us a sign of how others are experiencing this shadow part of ourselves - that we don’t see - and how it impacts on them. However, it can, when left unattended for a long period of time turn into symptoms, illness or disease; often in the case of repressed emotions that were not accepted as part of us as children.  For example, many people have an unhealthy relationship with their own anger and struggle to express it in a grounded way as it was deemed unacceptable when they were a small child. How many toddlers having a tantrum at two years old are sent to the ‘naughty corner’? What they are actually doing when they shake their body on the floor is trying to discharge the energetic charge of anger running through them.

Why do we need to do this inner child work?  I hear you ask. Well, often we don’t get a choice because we hit rock bottom.  Either in terms of poor health or relationship rupture. Often in midlife, our psyche gives us a chance to heal this wounding and face our pain to prepare ourselves for a vibrant ‘third act’ after we turn 50.  In her famous essay on Midlife, Brene Brown says it like this. ‘Midlife is when the Universe puts its hands on your shoulders and says “I’m not screwing around. All of this pretending and performing – these coping mechanisms that you’ve developed to protect yourself from feeling inadequate and getting hurt – has to go. Your armour is preventing you from growing into your gifts. I understand that you needed these protections when you were small. I understand that you believed your armour could help you secure all of the things you needed to feel worthy and loveable, but you’re still searching and you’re more lost than ever. Time is growing short....”

“Facing childhood wounding and working with relationships that will help you heal your relationship with your inner child might be some of the most challenging personal development work that you do but it will also be the most freeing and empowering.  ”

To heal your inner child, you need to bring that part of yourself to consciousness.  You do this by witnessing your inner world. That is, be able to observe when you are acting out one of your habits or patterns of behaviour.  Once you can do that, you work out what that behaviour is trying to gain for you; often love, safety and belonging. The next step is being able to parent yourself. This enables individuation and clear separation from the sensitive child part of you within you.  The third step is learning to put some strategies in place for self care so you can regulate your nervous system and then develop new strategies to cope and thrive in the world.

This work is freeing both to you and your family system.  It breaks cycles of family patterning that you have been carrying.  It creates the capacity for you to witness and observe your emotions and understand in an embodied way that you are not your emotions - you are just the experiencer of them.  It makes baring your emotions so much easier and gives you the ability to listen to them when they arise.

Doing the inner child work is tough.  You want to do it supported by a coach or therapist and with the support of those you love around you.  It will improve the quality of your relationships. It will open you up to different types of relationships and experiences in your life as you stop reacting and start creating the outcomes you want.  It will allow you to have a close relationship with your body and really learn to listen to it and the innate wisdom it has within it, by listening to your emotions and learning to be with them. You will learn to appreciate your shadow and move towards self-love and self- acceptance as you learn to love all the different parts of you, good and not so good.  Hopefully you learn to listen to your nervous system and really learn the meaning of ‘take care of yourself’; how to give yourself permission to rest, how to regulate yourself at a pace that is supportive of your need to recover. But most importantly, you will learn to love all the different child and adult parts of you that you discover and that you are a glorious, multi-dimensional being who is capable of living their best life and thriving in the world. 

I do inner child work in my coaching - if this is something would like to explore, come have a chat with me.